I should be asleep.
I should always be asleep.
However sleep happens to be the one thing that escapes my grasp though out the night.
Im almost certain the so called "insomnia" that i have, is actually a subconscious way of my mind finding peace night after night.
I spend all day parading around with this silly little smile on my face.
I can be sweet, i can be outgoing, i can be the best friend you've ever had.
But my mind is in a constant state of finding something more.
During the night
When the rest of the world is in bed,
tucked into a restful dream paradise
i am wide awake.
With no one around to judge me.
To be happy in my star-lit room.
I am free to write and ponder, and to roam outside with no question of why.
I like that i have reign over the world during those few hours everyone else lays asleep.
However it would be nice to dream again.
I’ve come to the conclusion that every decision...
Even the miniscule ones. (like not sleeping) have an effect.
Each decision we all make can have ten different effect strings attached to it.
And each time we choose, that string is pulled.
Every choice you make you could create or destroy you're life.
You may not know for years,
and you may never trace it back to its original source.
But you only get one chance to play it out.
I see people waiting.
As if something miraculous is going to fall into their laps.
Truth is it already has, but they wont get up and chase after it when its running.
Im tired of seeing beautiful things laid to waste.
Wasted time and wasted emotions.
I hear everyday: "i really want to..."
quit dreaming about it and do it.
Every one whines and claims they’re so bored with their life
or they wish things could be different.
Yet each person lets themselves be hindered by social outlooks that in turn don’t matter at all
I am perturbed by people who don't act on their feelings and wishes
just because of what someone else will thing
or what the outcome of that event may be.
We are only given so long in this world
a fraction of a fraction of a millisecond
and it makes me sad to see them waste it.
Fact: I will always do what my heart wants, no matter what anyone else thinks.
I should always be asleep.
However sleep happens to be the one thing that escapes my grasp though out the night.
Im almost certain the so called "insomnia" that i have, is actually a subconscious way of my mind finding peace night after night.
I spend all day parading around with this silly little smile on my face.
I can be sweet, i can be outgoing, i can be the best friend you've ever had.
But my mind is in a constant state of finding something more.
During the night
When the rest of the world is in bed,
tucked into a restful dream paradise
i am wide awake.
With no one around to judge me.
To be happy in my star-lit room.
I am free to write and ponder, and to roam outside with no question of why.
I like that i have reign over the world during those few hours everyone else lays asleep.
However it would be nice to dream again.
I’ve come to the conclusion that every decision...
Even the miniscule ones. (like not sleeping) have an effect.
Each decision we all make can have ten different effect strings attached to it.
And each time we choose, that string is pulled.
Every choice you make you could create or destroy you're life.
You may not know for years,
and you may never trace it back to its original source.
But you only get one chance to play it out.
I see people waiting.
As if something miraculous is going to fall into their laps.
Truth is it already has, but they wont get up and chase after it when its running.
Im tired of seeing beautiful things laid to waste.
Wasted time and wasted emotions.
I hear everyday: "i really want to..."
quit dreaming about it and do it.
Every one whines and claims they’re so bored with their life
or they wish things could be different.
Yet each person lets themselves be hindered by social outlooks that in turn don’t matter at all
I am perturbed by people who don't act on their feelings and wishes
just because of what someone else will thing
or what the outcome of that event may be.
We are only given so long in this world
a fraction of a fraction of a millisecond
and it makes me sad to see them waste it.
Fact: I will always do what my heart wants, no matter what anyone else thinks.
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